Thursday 26 December 2013

Blood and Booze

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Lovely

No that is not a pint of Cola above, it is my vomit which I produced after another binge on alcohol. Essentially its dried blood (I must have been bleeding internally somewhere). Ive been told its actually got a name: Hemostasis. Being a non medical person, I looked it up online ~

"Hemostasis is a process which causes bleeding to stop, meaning to keep blood within a damaged blood vessel. It is the first stage of wound healing."

if someone sees me drinking ever again, give me a slap. I fell off the wagon (again) last week and yesterday was terribly ill all day, im still not right after withdrawals but yesterday though id be back in hospital again. When will I learn I cant drink like others? And the sober Steven is a sweet guy, whereas my drunk ass me is a bit of a tosser (I call him my Evil Twin).
At least one good thing has come of it, namely the fact that while everyone elses cholesterol is sky high during Christmas (very dangerous), mine will be great because ive never over indulged (foodwise) during the holidays (mainly because ive been so ill from alcohol that I just can face food). From Boxing Day onwards I will be sticking to fish, fruit and water. Ive never liked the main killers (heart) of pastries, pudding and other sugary crap so all good.

Wednesday 4 December 2013

The 154080 Letters

Letter One

(May 18, 2006)

Steven ~

Hi! How are you? As for me im SO excited to recieve your letter & the fact that it came all the way from the U.K. is fascinating. I feel special. Thank you SO much for taking the time to write me. I hope when you recieve my letter it will brighten your day because you certainly have brightened mine.
So you're a writer? What kinds of things do tou write? I'd love to read some of it. I also love music & movies. I also love dance. When you have a photo I'd like to have one. You mentioned that you have a few tattoos. I really am into tattoos although I only have 3 myself and one I have to get removed because its a name. I definately learned to NEVER put a name on my body. But anyway....So you shaved your head? Ive been letting my hair grow. I think I look better with longer hair. If you're interested when I get pictures in July I'll send you one. I don't like the one my friend sent to the web page. What was she thinking?
No, we aren't allowed music :shock: We're really NOT allowed much aside from the usual, stamps, 20 envelopes, 5 pictures, journals with no wire binder, and of course money orders. You also mentioned cigs?Well this is a non smoking facility. Oh! We also can have tablets of paper sent & books from the bookstore. Anything would help.
We do get to watch some movies here which is one good thing about being at a private facility. We also have the opportunity to purchase things that State facilities don't. If we have the money that is.
I have never been out of the State of Florida. Sad, huh? So when I am released I would love to travel. Tell me what the U.K. and Europe are like? I'd love pictures (5).
Yes, I like sports. I like football & NASCAR, but I play softball.
I would like to know all about you Steven so I'll be waiting anxiously on your next letter. Until then, think of me.

Kisses ~
Tammy 154080

Letters II

Steve ~

Hey! How are you? Im smiling from ear to ear since recieving your package. I love the postcards. It's so beautiful! And thanks for the paper & envelopes & the effort with stamps.You are so sweet. I just can't believe that someone who doesn't know me would take the time to do something for me. Im very touched. Thank you again! I'll be smiling for days ~ I'd love a picture of you & if I have them I'll get pictures July 4th & send you one. I'm glad you liked the picture on the internet, I didn't.
So, American Footballs a little confusing to you, huh? Me too & ive grew up with it all my life. What's the difference in U.S. football & U.K. football? I'd love to visit the U.K. when I get out. I'm not sure if I'll be able to travel. Do you need a passport & would I be able to get one with a felony? I sure would love to meet you, my special friend :P
I like sports even though i'm not too good at playing them anymore & now watching them on TV is a big hassle up in here. I've read "The Broker", it was good. I love reading now. I'll be honest before getting locked up I never read. I was always out partying & dancing & drinking. I used to love to drink & that's what got me here! Anyway, I like to watch movies too. We watch them on the weekends in here but it's really hard to hear them when there's 71 women in a small dorm.
No, there's no smoking at this facility & that's all good to me but for people who did smoke it's really hard. I'm glad you stopped smoking. That's 1 bad habit I never picked up. But I had plenty of other bad habits.
I'd love to read some of the poems you write. So anytime you want to send me one, I'd love it :geek: I'm not sure about how the time difference stuff is but if you find out I'd like to know. I get up at 5:30am M~F & 10am on Sat & Sun. I go to school at 8am M~F until 4pm. Keeps me pretty busy.

You can't dance, huh? I love to dance. Of course I think I dance great but you and others may think different. If I were out I'd teach you some of my moves. Ha! Ha!
What kind of music do you listen to? I like all types of music but I love to dance to R & B & Rap but country line dancing is fun too.I did teach a class here but I went to confinement once for fighting :shock: & they took the class from me.
Oh my God ~ you've got some special guinea pigs. 2 females making babies ~ COOL! Ya may be onto something there.
A haunted castle? That sounds spooky! Have you ever visited it? Is your internet back up? Thank God you found me 1st!
I wish I could speak another language especially now that I live with so many different nationalities! But before I lived in a small country town so everybody talked real countrified.
I love tattoos. Maybe you could send me a picture where I could see some of yours. When I get out I want to get more. It's addicting. Well I want to get this to you as soon as possible. I look forward to hearing from you, You made my birthday special with your package. Thank you! I already feel close to you :shock: Is that crazy? Well, until I hear from ya again, you'll be in my thoughts.

Kisses ~

Tammy